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I'm Better Off Dead

Updated: Jan 12, 2023

I'm better off dead
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What does the phrase I'm Better Off Dead mean?

1. An Idiom that explains someone is in trouble or has no hope of not facing a consequence.

2. To be in a state or position of hopelessness where death is the best option.

Another common alternative phrase is "I'd rather die". Some people just use these phrases as a way to describe their situation, but others actually mean them.

If you just like to use the phrase and don't actually think you're better off dead, then please visit our article with the phrase I'm an Idiot. This page informs you of the unintentional harm these phrases cause. Not only to your mental health but your success in life as well.

For those of you that truly believe that you are better off dead, I would like to share a story of someone that used to think that way.

I used to constantly think about death. I really did believe that I am better off dead. I looked at my life and how I was feeling and tried to look at the future, but I still thought that my life wasn't worth living.

Some days would be better, but whenever trouble came my mind would immediately think that I don't want to live anymore.

It didn't matter what kind of trouble I faced. Someone could have looked at me wrong and I would think I am better off dead.

I would get all kinds of thoughts in my head like "see, they think you are better off dead too, looked at how they looked at you."

These thoughts plagued me from when I was about 8 years old until I was about 28.

Why did I think this way?

Was is a chemical imbalance?

Was it a demon that wouldn't stop talking?

I don't know what it was, but I can tell you that it stopped because of a simple prayer I said.

I had been diagnosed with PTSD from my time spent in the Iraq war and was at my breaking point.

I felt like my reality was caving in on me.

I wrecked my life and my mental health was deteriorating. I was paranoid and couldn't stop thinking negative and fearful thoughts.

I got out of the Marine Corps in 2010 and looked fine on the outside (for the most part), but was really struggling on the inside. I couldn't stop the thoughts...

Finally, in 2015 I was about to lose it all. My wife was planning on leaving me and I was a mess.

I looked at a picture of my kids on the Christmas tree in front of me and broke down crying.

I said God, "I wrecked my life so you can have it." I immediately had peace that everything was going to be alright.

It wasn't until a few days later until I realized that all my fear was gone. I wasn't paranoid and I stopped thinking I'm better off dead.

I didn't believe is supernatural things like this, but this short and simple prayer to God changed my life. I still have struggles like everyone, but my life is completely changed and for the good.

Would you like to say the same prayer I said?

God, I believe you exist. I believe You sent your Son Jesus to die on the cross for my sins. I believe He died for me and that He rose from the grave and still lives today.

I wrecked my life, so You can have it. I believe in You and choose to serve You. Please deliver me from the thoughts that haunt me and give me peace. Baptize me in Your Holy Spirit. Please forgive me of my sins and lead me to where You want me to go.

In Jesus' name, Amen.

Let us know you said that prayer by going to the Pray for Me page. If you click the button it will send us a notification. That will alert us that someone is struggling and we will immediately pray for you.

If you want to see more of my testimony and a video of another powerful suicide survivor testimony, go to the I Want to Kill Myself page.

Today I have a wonderful wife and kids, successful business, and basically everything that I could want. I am really glad that I found hope and decided not to kill myself. I would have missed out on so much. I have also helped thousands of other struggling people since then,

The problem with suicide and suicidal thoughts is you don't have hope. The problem with this is you don't actually know if you have hope or not since you can't see into the future. I have listened to quite a few suicide survivor stories and they are all glad they survived, because they found their future and it was plenty hopeful.

I didn't think I had hope, but fast-forward into today and looking back, I definitely had hope! I just couldn't see it because of my emotional imbalance.

Try saying the prayer above and find out what true hope is.

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