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I'd Rather Die (or not)

Updated: Jan 12, 2023

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What does, I'd rather die mean?

I would rather die or I'd rather die means that you refuse to think or do something. It is a phrase used to emphasize your point of not doing something.


It means someone legitimately wants to die and is looking for a way out of their circumstance by any means, including suicide.

Most people use this phrase as just another way of saying I don't want to do that. They think that it's harmless, but when they use it over and over again it could actually have some lasting effects.

Let's take the phrase "I am an Idiot. " I hear people say this all the time. The problem is that I have watched people say this and not really think they are an idiot, but over time they actually start to believe it. Then once they are struggling and feeling a little depressed, they start to dwell on thoughts like this and even start adding things like "I am a failure," or "I'll never make it."

These types of "harmless" phrases can actually turn into a real problem. Who do you think would be more successful, the person that thought they were an idiot and a failure or the person that didn't? Most likely the person that didn't. People generally don't try things if they believe they will fail. These types of things limit people and can cause them not to apply to that job, start that business, or introduce themselves to that guy or girl.

Let's think about the phrases "I would rather die" or "I want to die." When you think like that over and over, what do you think happens to your unconscious mind? It starts to believe it. Your unconscious mind is like a computer program that runs in the background. Our unconscious mind tells us how to walk without thinking about it.

When we hear I want to die all the time, our unconscious mind programs it in. Then when we are feeling down or depressed, we have no problem thinking these thoughts because they are already programmed in.

I suggest that you start using other phrases that actually build yourself up. You could also just be direct. If you don't want to do something, you could say "I'd rather not."

Think of your future. Your current day and hour is like a foundation for the next day. This year is a foundation for next year, and so on. You can build yourself up positively or negatively. It is always your decision to do what you want, but your decisions might not produce the best results in the long run.

If you are suicidal and are contemplating killing yourself please visit the I Want to Kill Myself page to see my story of how I found hope. Our site is designed to give hope to the hopeless. We want everyone to thrive in life so they can become their best self and become a light for other people that are struggling.

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Anthony Crutchfield
Anthony Crutchfield
Nov 24, 2022

I think about killing myself

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