You have arrived at this page because you want to learn how to kill yourself painlessly.
You have thought about it and feel like you want a painless suicide to end your life.
Before you think about it anymore, let me tell you the thoughts of those who have lost loved ones to suicide. Many people think they are better off dead and that the people in their lives would have a better life if you're gone.
This is NOT true.
Here are some of the thoughts from people who have lost their loved ones to suicide:
I would give anything to get them back.
I should have done more.
I should have loved them more.
I was a terrible friend, father, mother, etc.
I am the cause of their death.
I blame myself.
If I would have done ___ differently, they would still be alive.
If I only would have called or checked on them more.
I should have known.
I wasn't good enough.
I am a failure.
I am a terrible friend, father, mother, etc.
I should just kill myself now that they're gone.
I can't live without them.
Many more toxic thoughts...
People struggling with suicide have many thoughts running through their heads. You may be at the point where you want a painless suicide and are taking the next step in figuring out how to kill yourself painlessly. I hope you understand that after reading the thoughts above, there are no painless suicides.
Let me tell you one reason I never pulled the trigger. I believe it was God that prompted my grandpa to say this, but when I was really young, he told me about an old man that tried to take his own life.
I don't remember the exact details, but from what I remember, this is how my grandpa told it:
My grandpa explained that this man wanted to kill himself. He thought, "How do I kill myself as quickly and painlessly as possible?" He decided a gun was the best option.
So this man went and got a gun. He then put the gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. To his surprise, the gun went off, but he was still alive. The bullet shot through his face and blew his eye out.
This deeply disturbed him, and he was in a lot of pain, so he put the gun under his jaw and quickly pulled the trigger again. This time he was still alive, but he had blown part of his jaw and face off.
By this time, he was in a tremendous amount of pain and didn't want to die anymore, so he went inside to get his wife to take him to the hospital.
This man survived, but now has to face the massive scars on his face and a blind eye.
This story stuck with me for the rest of my life. One or two years later, I found myself having suicidal thoughts. I went outside and put a gun to my head, ready to end it all.
I remembered my grandpa's story as I felt the cold, hard metal against my cheek, teeth, and tongue. I didn't want the same thing to happen to me, so I tried placing the gun at different angles on my head and chest, trying to imagine the trajectory of the bullet.
Crying, I finally put the gun down. I didn't want to end up like that old man, so I walked back into the house.
I felt even worse. I felt like a failure because I couldn't kill myself.
This didn't matter, though, because I don't feel like a failure anymore. In fact, I am a hero for facing these thoughts and having the guts to face them head-on. I am a hero for not killing myself. I am a hero to all my friends, family, and my now wife and kids.
I am a hero to the tens of thousands of people that visit this site every month.
You can also be a hero. There are people who feel like you all over the world.
Your story and encouragement can help them.
I struggled with suicide several times after this incident. Do you know what set me free and changed my life?
A simple prayer.
After developing PTSD from my deployments to Iraq, my life started to spiral out of control.
I eventually came to a breaking point.
I learned about heaven and hell and would have killed myself if I didn't believe I would go to Hell.
So I cried out to God and said "I wrecked my life, so you can have it."
This simple prayer transformed my life. My life was changed within that very week!
Say this prayer with me and find peace just like I did.
God, I believe you exist. I believe You sent your Son Jesus to die on the cross for my sins. I believe He died for me and that He rose from the grave and still lives today.
I wrecked my life, so You can have it. I believe in You and choose to serve You. Please deliver me from the thoughts that haunt me and give me peace. Baptize me in Your Holy Spirit. Please forgive me of my sins and lead me to where You want me to go.
In Jesus' name, Amen.
Die to Yourself Painlessly
Some of you may be thinking this is all B.S. I don't believe in Jesus, He's just a fairytale character, just like the tooth fairy. Let me tell you this: Just because you can't see gravity doesn't mean it's not there. God created all of this earth and sent His Son Jesus, to die on the cross to pay for our sins. Jesus is how to kill yourself painlessly. He saved and changed my life when I decided to deny myself and follow Him. He can change and save yours too.
Jesus said, "...I am with you always, to the very end of the age" (Matthew 28:20). He is with you right now, if you can believe that.
I have seen transformation in the lives of hundreds of thousands of people who did not believe in Jesus. If hundreds of thousands of people who didn't believe in Him now do because He changed their lives, do you think you could too?
Jesus said in Matthew 16:24–26:
"If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul?"
If you truly follow Him, He will change your life. Since you are here, you have lost hope anyway, right? Put your hope in the God of miracles and watch what He will do with your life.
Make sure you actually follow Him and read the Bible, though. There are millions of "Christians" around the world who claim to be one but have not experienced the true transformation of Christ.
Read all of the New Testament Bible and do what it says. I guarantee that your life will be changed.
Die to yourself and you won't need a painless suicide.
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