Negative thoughts and feelings flowing through your mind and body.
What hope do I have?
I have nothing to live for...
I am worthless.
No one will miss me. I am just a failure...
Stop.
Stop this seemingly never-ending loop of toxic thoughts. Are these thoughts productive for you? Are they benefiting you in any way?
Let me paint you a picture.
Imagine you are in a hurry to get to the hospital because you got a phone call that your loved one had been in an accident.
You pull out of your driveway shaking because of the news.
You stomp on the gas and turn towards the only road to get to the hospital.
No, no, no! You cried out.
Not a train!
Imagine this train driving super slow down the tracks. It feels like an eternity because you don't know how long it's going to take.
You are seeing this train like it's two-dimensional. If you could go higher into the sky, you could see how long it would actually take.
Because you can only see the train in front of you, it brings you anxiety and uncertainty.
If you had a different perspective about the train and the hospital situation, you could have peace.
You don't know if it will take 30 seconds or 10 minutes. If you knew it would only take 1 or 2 minutes, you would have a lot more peace. The same goes for your loved one. If you knew they were okay, you would have a lot more peace.
Some people have these negative thoughts and feelings about certain situations and they don't want to deal with them anymore. It feels like the pain will never stop.
My question to you is, if you could float above all the traffic to see the end of the train, would you still want to end it all?
If you had to endure difficulties for a few weeks, months, years, but later were able to experience the peace, love, and joy that you always wanted, would you?
Before you answer that.
Do you know that people run marathons for fun? 26.2 miles of mostly pain.
Did you know that there are people who run ultra marathons for fun? Some over 3,000 miles where they have to make it in under 52 days. Can you imagine the pain they feel?
These people endure all of this pain and suffering just so they can have the joy and inner-satisfaction of accomplishing something hard. All of that pain for a little bit of joy.
Not only do these runners gain the satisfaction of accomplishing something hard; they develop their character into something unique.
Do you know the pain I have endured? No, you don't, but the pain I have endured has created my character into something unique. My character has been transformed into helping people out of the love of my heart. All for free. In fact, I pay money so people like you can see these messages of hope.
I am not saying you should endure pain just to endure it. I am saying to use the pain that you have already endured by transforming it into fuel. Fuel to help yourself and others.
What is your perspective on pain?
Will you use it to perfect your character? Or will you allow it to break down your character?
The end of the train might be just around the corner for your situation.
Don't give up on yourself.
Jesus laid His life down for you. Will you surrender your life to Him so He can give you rest?
Matthew 11:28 says, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."
Surrender to Jesus and you can have peace and joy in your life.
Life is full of pain and sorrow. That is a guarantee because it is appointed for every person to live once and die once. But what comes after that?
You can risk it all and find out when you die or you can choose to believe in an absolute creator right now and have the assurance of where you will go in the end.
If you would like the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7), then I invite you to say the following prayer and give your life to Jesus.
Jesus, I believe in You and choose to serve You. I give you my life. I believe you died on the cross for my sins, and were raised from the dead on the third day. Please deliver me from the thoughts that haunt me and give me peace. Baptize me in Your Holy Spirit. Please forgive me of my sins and lead me to where You want me to go.
Amen
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